Finding My Motivation

Owning your own business is not for the unmotivated.

If you ever struggle with forcing yourself to do things when you don’t have a task master bearing down your back, then being self employed may not be for you.

I have owned a business for several years now, in addition to having a regular job. I’ve been motivated off and on but to be honest, usually off.

Oh sure, my brain is like any other, I can think of all the reasons I should do something, and sometimes I can get frustrated enough with things to start (again) on things, but really in the end, much like the fizz in a soda pop, it goes flat after a while.

Recently I became very motivated, and so far it seems to be lasting.  I tried to reason my way out of it (yes I really did) but the more I tried to convince myself  that it wouldn’t work (and for very very good reasons) the more that inner…something stoked the fires until I couldn’t ignore it.

You see, there’s this lady… oh yes, it’s the classic downfall (or driving force) behind many a man… and it wouldn’t really work unless I was more successful (in my mind anyway).

And the more I didn’t want to put effort in, the more effort I felt compelled to put in.  No it probably wouldn’t work out, but I keep going now, picking up speed.

Why?

Because I should have been in a place where we could have given it a shot (again, in my own mind), and even though it’s far too late for her, I’ll be ready for the next one.

Superficial?  Yes.  Poor reasons?  Yep.  Did it do the trick?  Sigh, yes, yes it did.  But I’ll take the motivation and the momentum and roll with it, because I AM worth it, and I need to be able to prove that I am capable of it.  It just would have been nice if it had been for any one of a number of other reasons I’ve had.

Ah who can fathom the human heart?  Not me, that’s for sure.

What is it that motivates you?

- Jeffery